I Don't Have To Let Go

Its been 10 months since Addi died. There have been so many ups and downs this past year, especially in regards to my daughter dying. This truly has been the worst thing I have ever gone through. It has been almost unbearable knowing so many friends who are pregnant. Usually those are the people who have been telling me I need to move on and get over it. Get over what? My little girl dying? I don't have to let go...and I never will. That I promised her. I feel like I need some sort of change to escape these feelings. I'm not sure what this change will be or when but it will happen soon. Nobody had to tell me any of this. I know what is best for me and that's what I will do.

I want to take a minute to congratulate one of my best friends, Alesha Martinez. I am so completely happy for you and cannot wait for this little joy aka my niece or nephew to arrive. Baby is due about a week before my birthday. Yaaaaaaa :)

So all that I wanted to say to others is let me be in peace and grieve. It's going to take more than a year for me to get over losing my child. Please respect that my daughter died and there is nothing I can do to bring her back. I will always hold onto her but I need to give myself time to breathe and think.

This is all I have for now. Please comment with you opinions and thoughts. Thank you.